During most of my life, I always aimed to create an existence where everything will be in total balance.
By writing it, I want to stress that I was always dividing my life into as-balanced-as-possible parts. These divisions are as follows: girlfriend/family, school/work/finance, friends, and hobby. I always tried to cope with all mentioned-above themes to say that everything is in balance in my life. Now I know that such thinking and doings do not make sense. The older I am, the more I see and feel that it is merely impossible to make all things balanced on the highest level. I remember that there was always something that is not balanced, that something is not working as it should work.
Now I know that possessing a balance in every aspect of one’s life is impossible.
The fact is that we are all humans. We are not cyborgs who can manage every task on the highest level. There will always be something to improve, something that we can change for the better. Whether we speak about relations with other people (family or friends), earning money (we always can try to make more), or regarding developing passion (we can always try to possess more time for a hobby), I am convinced that there will always be something to improve.
I remember that during my whole life, there was something to improve.
Whether it was the lack of a girlfriend during some years of my life, whether these were problems in my accountancy job or issues connected with the school, I always knew that I do not possess a balance in my life. I was frustrated a little bit because of this fact. Luckily, now I do not aim to maintain such an existential balance. Thanks to this fact, I am happier, and I do not feel internal pressure to balance my life because I do not believe if such total balance exists.
