I see power in my complexity of who I am and what I do, which is in professionally working in finance, blogging, writing, doing street photography, and rucking.
I believe that all these parts of me (analytics, artistic, and relating to fitness) are integrated. They can work together rather than battle. I am still trying to figure out who Adam Mazek is, and I’m convinced I will live with this impossible-to-solve riddle until the end of my life. Undoubtedly, I know I should accept and embrace the complexity and messiness of who I am. How do I do it? For example, in terms of lifestyle, I frequently try to juggle three things at once when I go to the office where I work. Often, after returning from my office, I try to walk and do street photography.
Since I started rucking (walking with a heavy rucksack), I also try to do it after my office work.
This process of integrating my interests is not always smooth, but it’s a journey I’m committed to. By combining all these things, I want to prove to myself that I am not only an accountant, but also an artist-photographer, and bodybuilder (I have written many times that one of the best advantages of rucking is building muscles). Also, while writing all these things, I think I could also name myself a freak. Why? Who walks in summer clothes in freezing temperatures in the middle of 2 a city like Warsaw? Me. Undoubtedly, many people seeing me like that would tell me I am a freak.
As you can see, my Dear Friend, I cannot clearly write about who I am.
This complexity will remain with me until the end of my life. The only thing I know is that I should try to integrate all my personalities into one being. I do not want to, e.g., the artistic soul that lives in me. After all, I cannot imagine myself without doing street photography, blogging, and writing texts like this one. Still, I do not want to resign from money from my finance job. Also, I do not want to resign from health. Health provides me with intermittent fasting, rucking, and exposing my body to cold. I try to integrate myself to the best possible level to be flexible in my life. And I invite you, my Dear Friend, to be a part of this ongoing self-discovery, to witness the integration of all my personalities into one being.
