Sometimes I like to cut myself off from the world, not through drinking alcohol or physical escape, but through music.
Sometimes I like to lie down with headphones and music on, and I want to contemplate my life. Of course, I have all sorts of thoughts in my head. Still, I think that the health of my psyche is that I don’t let these thoughts stifle me. Even when black clouds and scenarios appear in my imagination, I can tame them, thinking they don’t have to happen. Even if they do, I will die sooner or later anyway, so is there any point in worrying about a black scenario? No, it’s a waste of life, time, and energy. While writing this text, I wondered how I could name it. Perhaps, it could be a “Bad Scenario” title or “Cut off.” I decided to call it the latter and write the “Bad Scenario” in the future.
As far as I know, most people like to cut themselves off from reality.
Many humans do it by drinking alcohol. They want to sink their negative thoughts and fears in alcohol. They are sinking their dreams, and in the long term, they ruin their lives. A similar case happens when doing drugs. In Poland, people tend to say:
I want to drop everything off and go to the Bieszczady Mountains.
By saying it, we want to state that we want to cut off from reality. For me, escapism is walking and doing street photography, reading, or listening to music, as mentioned at the beginning of this post. All these things do not mean I dislike my mundane reality. Contrary. I love it. That’s why I love contemplating my life, including thinking about the worst scenarios. Still, I know that bad scenarios cannot overcome me anyhow.
