Each time I write, I hope to create the masterpiece of my life.
Still, every time I finish my text, I see and feel I will never complete something like the masterpiece of my life, the essence of everything, humankind’s wisdom compiled in one text that will inspire millions. Every time I finish my text, I see how far away, in writing, I am from geniuses like Seneca, Dostoyevsky, Proust, or Lem. The more texts I write, the more I see I will never be fully satisfied with my thoughts transformed into written words and published on my blog. This struggle is an integral part of my writing process, and I’ve come to accept it as a necessary part of my growth as a writer. I want you to know that if you’re on a similar journey, you’re not alone. The struggle is real, but it’s also a sign of growth and progress.
Does it mean I plan to stop writing? Not at all.
On the contrary, I find immense joy in the process of writing, in the act of putting my thoughts into words and sharing them with the world. Even if I am aware I won’t write anything breathtaking and groundbreaking, I know I will be writing as long as my mental health lets me do it. I believe the desire to express myself via written words is one of the most magical things I can do, not only for myself but also for humanity. I want others to hear my voice, even if many people won’t listen to it during my lifetime, as there is too much noise on TV or the Internet. My blog does not have to be heard in the broadly defined aether.
I do not write for fame.
The truth is that I write because I feel a desire and need to leave something meaningful behind. The value of leaving a meaningful legacy, even if it’s just through my blog, is something I hold dear. Of course, I know that my texts do not have to last long. For example, together with my photos, they can disappear within ten years after my death. Still, I believe it is worth trying to write and publish my ideas. Even if I never create significant content, I have no doubt I do the right thing. I believe in the value of my writing, and that belief is what keeps me going.
