In the “Internal Fight” post, I wrote about the fight that takes place in my mind daily.
Does it mean I am constantly battling? No. Sometimes I am simply disputing with myself. I feel that some parts of my consciousness provide me with different information and points of view on the actions I should take to resolve this internal debate. I am discussing with myself and analyzing each potential action’s pros and cons. Sometimes I have time for this contemplation, and sometimes I know I must decide to act within the next seconds. Oftentimes, due to pressure, the internal debate changes into rage. Still, when there is no hurry and stress, when my mind does not know how to work on the highest possible spins, my mind often wanders through many worlds, and I am simply talking to myself.
It frequently happens while I walk/ruck and do street photography.
For example, I tend to imagine a dialogue with the people from my world whom I know. I project dialogues on various topics. I predict what other people would say or answer me on many questions and doubts. Also, during the internal debate occurring in my mind, I tend to analyze various scenarios of many situations. Do you know what is most interesting, my Dear Friend? Conclusions. In general, all the findings will lead us to inevitable death. During that moment, I realize it is no use to analyze too many events that can occur, but do not have to.
Undoubtedly, it is much better to focus on the present moment, without memorizing the past too much and overthinking the future. To be more precise, I do not overthink during my internal debates. I would say it is some kind of mental exercise for my mind and imagination. I wonder, my Dear Friend, if you also have internal debates taking place in your imagination.
