I tend to write about an internal fight that takes place in my mind, heart, and soul.
I often used the “fight for myself against myself” sentence. What does it precisely mean? Did I get crazy? Am I a winner or a loser? It depends. The answer is not straightforward. Undoubtedly, this internal fight takes place daily, almost all the time. I would say that before we take any action (e.g, whether to eat a candy or not), the internal fight takes place deep in our mind. Today (I wrote this text on the 24th of August, 2025), I am winning this internal battle (I wrote this text at my beloved Parents’ house in Brok, where candies are often available to pick and eat).
Since I started doing intermittent fasting, the devil who sits on one of my shoulders, who used to tell me to eat candies to feel a short and floating moment of joy, has already been knocked down by the angel who sits on my other shoulder, because the angel knows precisely that eating candies will worsen my health in the long term.
Intermittent fasting, a powerful tool in my self-improvement journey, made this angel more robust in the process of decision-making. What about other fights? I forgot about the devil who wanted to give a beer bottle. This devil is activated only while I am away, on holiday. Also, since I had been swimming regularly (between 2011-2018), started walking and doing street photography (since October 2015), and rucking (since the 18th of August, 2024), I know I have overcome the devil responsible for my physical laziness.
I would not say I am lazy. I wouldn’t do this even if I knew I could spend over half a day reading books. Reading and writing texts (like this one) is another excellent example of how I am winning the internal fight with myself for myself. I am losing this fight when mindlessly scrolling reels on Facebook and Instagram. Sometimes I win, sometimes I lose. That’s the way it is.
