In my previous text, ‘Stagnation,’ I mentioned I hadn’t prepared ‘Diaries’ for one and a half months. Today (I wrote this text on April 16, 2024), I ask myself whether it was the end of the world.
The ‘Diaries’ are not just a collection of my thoughts and experiences but a journey we take together, my Dear Friend. I believe they hold a special place in my heart and I know they mean something to you too. Still, the answer to the titled question is obvious: it is not the end of the world that I did not prepare subsequent ‘Diaries’ editions for one and a half months. The truth is that I wrote some texts about deadlines. In my office job (remember, my Dear Friend, that I work in a broadly defined Finance area), there are many deadlines. Sometimes, I feel there are too many of them. Still, since I started creating and publishing ‘Diaries,’ I have implemented additional deadlines for myself.
Firstly, I wanted to publish ‘Diaries’ on the first Sunday of each month.
Then, I changed the deadline to publish ‘Diaries’ on Sunday, but without any pressure, it must be the first Sunday of the month. I’ve shown resilience in meeting these deadlines in the past, and I can do it again. Is it the first time I have not published ‘Diaries’ for a month? No, it already happened in January 2023. I remember being too absorbed in my office job and not having time and energy to prepare subsequent ‘Diaries’ editions. In March 2024, I had a similar issue. Perhaps I won’t prepare ‘Diaries’ even in April 2024 and the upcoming months. Will it be the end of the world?
Of course, it won’t be.
I think I simply need a new stimulus to return to prepare and publish the latest ‘Diaries’ edition. Even Fyodor Dostoyevsky took a break in terms of his ‘A Writer’s Diary’ publishing, and John Lennon also let go of his musical career. We all need to take a rest sometimes. It’s a normal part of the creative process. While writing all these things, I recalled that I had written many times that nothing wrong would happen if I did not meet the deadline. Today, I want to confirm my thoughts from the past. I’ve always known that missing a deadline doesn’t define me or my work.
