My inner combat between madness and rationality has occurred in my mind, heart, and soul since I started street photography (October 2015).
After all, wouldn’t devoting my time only to my office work in the accounting area be a rational behavior? Still, for almost nine years (I wrote this text on the 24th of May, 2024), I have devoted my spare time to street photography, writing, and managing the www.adammazek.com website. Isn’t it a madness? I believe it is. After all, I do not earn money from doing street photography and writing.
Moreover, I do not want to do it. I work in the office in the broadly defined Finance area to pay my bills and develop my passion.
It is my rationality. Still, my madness is that maybe I should devote most of my time to my career so that I can buy a new, fancy car and build a house. Shouldn’t I focus only on my career in Finance? The rational part of my brain tells me I should do it. Still, I frequently consider myself a madman who walks in summer clothes in frigid temperatures, takes photos of garbage lying on the ground, and does not want to monetize his passion anyhow. Who does not eat anything until 7 p.m. Undoubtedly, many people consider me a freak. But the personal rewards of my passion, the joy I feel when I capture a unique moment on the street, the satisfaction of creating something from nothing, these are the things that keep me going.
Luckily, other people’s thoughts cannot harm me anyhow.
Indeed, I do not care what others think about me. That’s why I plan to continue doing all my work, both working in the office and remaining an artist-madman who does strange things. Did I mention that strange fascinations fascinated me as David Bowie sang? I want to become a part of art history with my black-and-white photographs and written texts. Does it mean I am a madman? I am. After all, who’s interested in taking pictures of old rags and presenting them as works of art?
