Some memories seem as distant as stars.
I know that unimaginably huge and hot stars exist somewhere far away from us and shine with their eternal light. After all, the sky full of stars that I had the opportunity to observe yesterday and the day before yesterday in my hometown of Brok confirms that these stars exist unimaginably far away. However, it is impossible to feel their warmth and light. Just as it is impossible to experience the same feelings about our past. We know that what we remember has already happened. Just as the light from the stars we see in the night sky reaches us after millions of years of travel, and when our eyes see them, they seem only a ray, a fading spark of information from the past, so do the distant memories that we have preserved in our minds.
It is impossible to experience the same feelings when recalling moments from the distant past.
Is everything lost forever? Both experiencing and feeling moments from the distant past? I believe there is a spark of hope. I notice that both intermittent fasting, exposing my body to cold by taking cold showers, and walking in summer clothes in frigid temperatures, and rucking, all especially during the first weeks and months of doing all these things, helped me to recall many occurrences from the past which, I thought, were already lost and forgotten by memory. Also, I remember that exposing my body to cold evoked many dreams during my sleep.
That’s why I believe, no matter how unreachable and far our memories are, we can sometimes feel fragments of feeling from the distant past.
After all, we can still see the light not only of our beloved Sun, but also of millions of other stars. What we need is the dark sky without clouds and a little bit of mindfulness to be ready to look up to the sky and contemplate what is unreachable, unsolved, and practically unexplained (after all, who explained what dark matter, dark energy, and quantum mechanics are?).
