Once again, to write a post, I am freshly re-inspired by another Metallica’s song from the “Black album.” The song’s name is “The God that failed.”
The text of the song talks about James Hetfield’s (lead vocalist of the band) mother. Cynthia Hetfield had cancer, and she died because of this illness. She was an eager Christian Scientist. This belief strongly disapproves of medicine and any other medical treatment. Thus, she did not even try to heal herself with the help of medication. She believed that God would heal her. But, she died. The song is about losing faith in God. Probably some part of James’ soul also perished along with his mother. God had failed him.
I also have in my family a traumatic memory regarding death. I will write about it later, in the separate post. Nevertheless, the fact is that when I was nine years old, I brutally had to know what death is.
But, when I realized that my loved died, even if I was nine years old, I didn’t believe that God (or however, how we call him), had failed me. Contrary, I started to consider that all things which occur in our lives are not the accident. We, the people, have too limited minds’ possibilities to understand all the processes and things that are going on in the universe. We continuously try to obtain knowledge about surrounding us world, and that’s a fundamental phenomenon. Nevertheless, I am sure that we are not able to understand and to answer a lot of critical, existential issues. We do not possess (and we will never obtain it) enough power of our minds to understand why we all appeared in this world, and why we all have to die.
Stanislaw Lem, in one of his books (“The Star Diaries”), even was making fun of human’s inabilities to understand how we appeared in this world.
Lem, as a science-fiction writer, was doing it with the help of the Aliens. These Aliens stated that humans are one of the most primitive civilizations in the whole universe because we do not know why and how we appeared on our planet. Nevertheless, back to the main topic, I do understand pretensions to the God that he took away someone who we loved. If we do not understand something, grief, desperation, and anger appear. Ultimately, we should remember that life is fair. Our existence is painfully fair because the lives of all beings will end with death. The end of our existence will reach every one of us. In this case, God undoubtedly will not fail us.
