I have no influence on what other people think of me. It is an indisputable fact.
If something is beyond my control, why should I care? Other peoples’ thoughts are totally beyond me. Thus, I prefer to focus on my ideas, feelings, and artistic activity. The indisputable fact is I cannot control other people’s thoughts. I cannot steer other humans’ doings. For me, trying to influence other peoples’ feelings and ideas is an unproductive activity. I want to focus only on my personal doings, beliefs, and emotions. I know that I am unable to control my beloved Kamilka’s thoughts and feelings. But what if others want to insult me? What if other people say negative things about me? Well, I do not care. There is no use in thinking about other people’s thoughts.
The indisputable fact is that I can control myself and my doings.
I wrote it once. I will write it twice: I am focusing on my resources (time, energy, etc.) on artistic activity. Undoubtedly, the joy of creation is something I want to devote a big part of my life. I believe that it is the only way for me to be remembered by posterity. When I think that I can devote my time and energy to something, I can be immortalized. At the same time, I can have good, healthy, creative, fun. I do not see any problem with devoting most of my resources to all these things.
What about people who think that I got insane. That’s their problem, not mine. I do not know if such people exist, but if yes, I want to tell them that they can do and think whatever they want to do. It is their life and their choice. They do not influence me in the same way as I do not affect them.
