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Total emptiness.

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Before I started writing this text, I felt I had a total emptiness in my mind.

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I wrote the “Total emptiness” text on the 12th of February, 2026. It was a day when I was working remotely for almost 12 hours on the Financial Statements. I do not have to mention that I was not walking today. Still, yesterday, while returning from my office to home, I had a rucksack weighing almost 30 kg (66 lbs). Did I hurt myself? Did my injured right calf start to hurt me? Luckily, now. I wrote that I felt that it was the pace of walking, not the heavy burden on my back and shoulders, that was a danger for my injury. Still, both yesterday and today, I had a literal total emptiness in my head.

I wanted to write something, but I did not know what.

Yesterday, I was too tired to write anything. Perhaps if I could only have had a piece of an idea to develop in my text, I would do it. Still, I did not have it. Today, it was practically the same situation. After working for almost 12 hours, I did not have energy or ideas to write anything. Still, knowing that yesterday I did not write anything, I wanted to write a piece of text. I wanted to write for writing’s sake. That’s how the title for this appeared, straight out of my empty mind. I am not a genius writer.

I do not know if my texts will be read 100 years after my death. The only thing I know is that the struggle will be with me until my final days. I know that adversities won’t leave me alone. If they do, it would probably mean that I am already dead. I will finish this writing, because I must go to sleep quickly.