I do not believe in my artistic passion as much as Johann Georg Schroepfer did in his “magical” abilities.
Johann Georg Schroepfer was a German occultist and Freemason who lived between 1730 and 1774. He ran a coffee shop in Leipzig where he held seances for entertainment. As part of the show, he projected images of ghosts on clouds of smoke. He did it by using a magic lantern. Schroepfer was driven mad by his own projections. He believed so much in all his doings that he committed suicide after promising to resurrect himself. Did he manage to resurrect? Of course not. I do not want to be so stupid like Schroepfer and commit suicide in the name of my art. I wonder if I would be able to give my life for all my artistic doings. Probably not.
On the other hand, I cannot imagine living without taking photos, writing texts, managing the www.adammazek.com website, preparing subsequent editions of “Diaries” or creating a new set of pictures, like “Birds.”
Undoubtedly, I believe in my passion and all things I do and create, but I know that I would not commit suicide to prove something to someone. Thus, it is hard to answer the titled question because I know that I tremendously believe in my creative activities, but not that much to kill myself. Without life, there would be not the process of art creation. I wonder if I would be able to go to jail in the name of my artistic passion. I do not know it.
The truth is that I hope that I will never have to choose between going to jail or creating art. My aim is to live as long as possible with my Kamilka, parents and family, and friends and prepare as many new, above-mentioned creative things as possible. I have no doubt that I believe in my artistic passion on the highest possible, commonsensical level.
PS
I wrote this text on the 9th of June, 2021.
